It has occurred to me that this feels like the pregnancy symptom complaint blog. I'll have you know, dearies, that it was never my intention to come off as a whiner. I suppose the only thing going on with this pregnancy right now is the ever-changing wierdo things happening to my body. Otherwise, life is pretty uneventful right now. And, although I anxiously await the days of posting photos of my baby showers and awesome nursery decorations and furniture, right now all I've got to share with you is my insomnia.
It became apparent to me this morning that Ian is getting "used to" my hormonal rants and insomnia induced morning moodiness. He flows through the morning routine like a champ consisting of feeding the kitties, putting down some drinking water, filling up our tupperware containers full of whatever today's lunch consists of, walks outside for a cigarette and all the while just stays OUT of my way. I feel terrible. Especially this morning...both physically and emotionally. I'm moody because I didn't get any sleep last night. In fact, I spent most of last night resenting Ian for his extended snoozefest while I tossed and turned with my Boppy Pregnancy Body Pillow. I feel terrible for being so damn moody and bitchy. I know he's been going through his own anxiety lately, and I haven't particularly been the strongest shoulder to lean on, but hey...I'm growing a human here! Anyway, needless to say, I love this guy more and more with every passing day. I mean, my mom doesn't even put up with my crap...she called me out last night. When, apparently I was "dismissive" on the phone during our brief conversation. Little did she know that I wasn't trying to rush her off, just trying to finish eating my bowl of Peanut Butter Chocolate GooGoo Ice Cream. I was enjoying it dammit. No harm, no foul. But, I never meant to be RUDE. Sorry. Thank you to both Ian and my Mom for everything that they have done, continue to do, and will do in the future...I really love you guys!!!Anywho...hoping all of this gets a little easier... Can I have one of those easy, breezy, beautiful (minimal weight-gaining) pregnancies, please? Argh! Suffering from really bad allergies, causing me not to get to sleep, snowballing into anxiety of insomnia...Rawwrrrr!!!! I need a nap. Maybe I'll take one of those lunchtime power naps. Hopefully I'll get some sleep before I scratch my eyeballs out. Yay...it's MONDAY.
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