I cannot properly express my sense of urgency and lack of patience for my period to be over and done with! I'm ready to stop bleeding, thanks. So, I'm all gung-ho about this trying-to-conceive bit, or "TTC" as they call it in the online baby forums. I'm so pro-active that I've decided to quit smoking again. The current pack I have in my possession will be my last. I don't need it and I only picked it back up again out of sheer boredom. Also, I stopped spending time with Ian on our back porch because I quit smoking. These days, it's more of a chore than a nice way to enjoy the outdoors. It's too hot outside to even bother with anymore! So, ta-da! Sayonara Marlboro Ultra Lights!
In another one of my efforts of proactive babymaking, I've decided to start tracking the important stuff going on in my body. I bought an OPK (ovulation predictor kit) last month with some pee tabs. I also have an app on my phone where I track when and if I get my period every month called My Days. The app is also supposed to tell you when you're at your most fertile, but I just discovered a brand spankin' new one that is supposed to go above and beyond. Yes - this is a tad graphic, you've been forewarned. There's a new app out for couples TTC called Pink Pad. And, not only does it manage your menstrual calendar, it also tracks weight, cervical mucus, body temperature, ferning, spotting, menstrual flow, emotional and physical health, and connects you to other women for support and information. I don't even know what ferning is, but dammit I'm going to track it!
So I've been religiously taking my prenatal vitamins that I had leftover every night at bedtime. Hopefully that will create a nicer environment for the babymaking to commence! CanNOT. Wait. To. Stop. Bleeding. And. Begin. OVULATING!
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Monday, August 1, 2011
Nobody knows...
I'm such an open and public person. I'm generally the total opposite of private in daily life. I'm perfectly ok with sharing my life's on-goings with moderately acquainted strangers. I'm not generally inclined to talk about my deep, dark secrets. However, there's not many of those anyway. So, overall I don't have much to hide. My mother sees this as a fault of mine, but I tend to disagree. It's part of my charm, see. I'm what people call "sincere" in every sense of the word. Sometimes I can sense how she feels though, when I see Ian over-sharing with people I assume to be strangers. I agree it is usually better to keep quiet, because as I've learned in life, the more you put out there, the more ammunition for which people have to hurt you. However, my general friendly nature and my chatty inclinations usually steer me away from keeping too many things secret, especially from those who know me well.
Ian and I have managed, however, to keep our current secret pretty quiet. I suppose since I'm blogging about it, that it no longer constitutes as a secret. However, I find it hard to believe anyone other than Ian or my mother continue to read a blog about a pregnancy of mine that no longer exists. I haven't much advertised that I continue to blog about motherhood because, well no one really knows our secret.
We're trying to conceive. We're actively trying to get pregnant. We've been having sex way before we were supposed to after the miscarriage and have continued to have unprotected sex in hopes of an extra-fertile window of opportunity post baby loss. I finally got my period last week, which as Ian stated "...is a good thing, because now we can officially start trying." He's right. Even though I hated buying another box of tampons instead of getting that prenatal vitamin prescription filled, that ovulation predictor kit that I bought last month will finally be put to use! In just a few days I'll be able to start tracking all that important information about my body.
It took almost a year of unprotected sex and stars aligning to get pregnant. Even among my cystic ovaries and endometrial-lined uterus, we managed to fertilize the little egg inside me. However, since it did take a year, we haven't told anyone that we are actively trying just in case we miss the mark. Just in case we take extra long to conceive or I manage to get pregnant again and have complications. Whatever the case may be, I won't be making the same mistake twice. I'll be waiting for the end of my first trimester to start spreading the news. Unless, that is, you read my blog and figure it out.
I'm continuing to plan my wedding in the midst of it all. I don't care if I'm big and fat and all belly on my wedding day. I'll be standing next to the man I love with a beautiful blessing of a child growing inside me. I'll still enjoy that honeymoon in the caribbean we're having so much fun planning. I'll still dance to Frank Sinatra and drink champagne on my wedding day. I'll be there with my mother, father, and grandmother by my side cheering me on every step of the way. I'm am and will continue to be happy and that's all that matters.
Ian and I have managed, however, to keep our current secret pretty quiet. I suppose since I'm blogging about it, that it no longer constitutes as a secret. However, I find it hard to believe anyone other than Ian or my mother continue to read a blog about a pregnancy of mine that no longer exists. I haven't much advertised that I continue to blog about motherhood because, well no one really knows our secret.
We're trying to conceive. We're actively trying to get pregnant. We've been having sex way before we were supposed to after the miscarriage and have continued to have unprotected sex in hopes of an extra-fertile window of opportunity post baby loss. I finally got my period last week, which as Ian stated "...is a good thing, because now we can officially start trying." He's right. Even though I hated buying another box of tampons instead of getting that prenatal vitamin prescription filled, that ovulation predictor kit that I bought last month will finally be put to use! In just a few days I'll be able to start tracking all that important information about my body.
It took almost a year of unprotected sex and stars aligning to get pregnant. Even among my cystic ovaries and endometrial-lined uterus, we managed to fertilize the little egg inside me. However, since it did take a year, we haven't told anyone that we are actively trying just in case we miss the mark. Just in case we take extra long to conceive or I manage to get pregnant again and have complications. Whatever the case may be, I won't be making the same mistake twice. I'll be waiting for the end of my first trimester to start spreading the news. Unless, that is, you read my blog and figure it out.
I'm continuing to plan my wedding in the midst of it all. I don't care if I'm big and fat and all belly on my wedding day. I'll be standing next to the man I love with a beautiful blessing of a child growing inside me. I'll still enjoy that honeymoon in the caribbean we're having so much fun planning. I'll still dance to Frank Sinatra and drink champagne on my wedding day. I'll be there with my mother, father, and grandmother by my side cheering me on every step of the way. I'm am and will continue to be happy and that's all that matters.
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